Sunday evening used to be a horrid time for me. My husband always used to work away and would be leaving for the week either late Sunday night or early Monday morning. I would try hard not to let the thought of him leaving spoil the day but honestly it would always be in the back of my mind and I would always feel sad. Monday was always dreadful , the loneliness crippling , I almost felt in mourning every bloody week. Dramatic much!! Haha!! Anyway Dave no longer works away and so I no longer have that feeling of dread all day Sunday. Instead I feel happy and relaxed. I enjoy the thought that a new week is about to begin , new challenges , new experiences and lots of fun to be had.
This is one thing in my life that has most definitely changed for the better!
It's Sunday evening now and I have lots planned for the coming week, busy busy as always ! Can't wait to get started!!
I've had a pretty good day today. Baby slept in 4 hours stretches over night so woke up pretty refreshed , if cold! Had a calm morning. Children got to school on time. Visited dad for a coffee. Baby had a nap. Sister visited. Then mum and dad popped in later. Even managed to do some art work! So why do I get to 4 o'clock and suddenly feel completely overwhelmed! I honestly could sob , I am exhausted and can't bring myself to even stand up! Can I have a slap please ! Fingers crossed I feel better soon!
Today we shall enjoy the last day of the holidays! Unfortunately Dave has already gone back but he is on an early so will be home before we know it! Plans for today include scooter riding, cookie baking , knitting and dancing! It's all good fun in the Wyche household :)
I've got a good feeling about this year. Pretty convinced it's not going to be a easy one but I think the challenges will make us stronger in the end. There is lots that I want to do, lots I want to achieve and I know that anything is possible! All I need to do is have some kind of plan and I can get what I want. The first thing I really really need to deal with is our finances. We have alot of debt and not quite enough income. We have scaled down on alot but honestly things are still pretty tough. This makes things so very hard and I'm certain this is affecting my husband more than he let's on . It must be pretty tough being the sole bread winner and demoralising when you work so hard but have nothing to show for it. So I need to work out how to make things better, bring in some more money to ease his burden. There are a number of things I can do , perhaps make a real go of selling my jewellery , maybe finding some paid singing work. Sensibly tho I think a job is the way to go! Some weekend work perhaps? Mason is still only very young and exclusively breastfed but once he is 6 months I will start looking for work. I don't want to be away from the home during the week until he is at preschool but there must be something I can do. I'm not work shy and its time to prove it! So watch this space , 2012 is going bring alot of changes around here!
I've not written here in a little while, not because I have nothing to say but because I don't have the words to say it. Does that even make any sense? 2011 is drawing to a close and I can't even begin to describe how mind blowing this year has been for me. I have felt such a wide range of emotions , experienced so many things that I truly believe I will be entering the new year as a totally new person. Not just changed , someone new! I look in the mirror and I barely recognise the person looking back at me . It's not just about being older and it's certainly not about being wiser! Some of the differences are bad ,no not bad that's the wrong word , they are more confusing than bad . I've got to tell you alot of the changes are awesome. I've begun to realise my own strength , have confidence in my abilities , the courage to try something new even if it might fail. I'm entering the new year a mum of three amazing children who bring me such joy. I'm surrounded by such love and friendship. I've always felt that I'm not really liked, that I'm irritating and hardwork! I AM irritating and hardwork but now I know that it's ok. The right people are willing to work hard and in return I naturally become less challenging to be around. There I go not making much sense again. Life isn't perfect , who's life is? There is always something to work towards but I am glad of that . We should never stop trying to improve things , that's when we become lazy and complacent . I have no idea what the new year will bring for me . I can tell you what I hope it to bring. Some fun , love , hope and excitement . I am going to sing more , craft more , let go more! I will hold on to negativity less , spend less time online , moan less . The only person who can make these things happen is me. These aren't unachievable goals , these are NOT new years resolutions . It's just the way I need to live my life .
Onwards and upwards as they say . Good things are coming . It won't always be easy but I'm damn sure going to make it worth it !
And I'm not ready!! Meal not organised , presents not bought and worse no cash to do either! I don't actually care tho because it's not about either of those things. The important thing is being with my wonderful family and that is what I'm looking forward too :) Hubby has the week between Christmas and new year off and I'm so pleased ! We desperately need some time together as a five and I intend to make the most of it.